so things are better now still have some feeling the life is falling apart around me with my children and girlfriend and rest of my family so not really sure what to do but i guess i will figure it out

day 2

so last night really sucked ass. i was thinking about life today and what i came up with is that all this year all i could think about is life is really just kicking the holy shit out of me but then there was that one little gimmer of hope but really it was just like charlie brown getting ready to kick that football soon as i went to kick the ball got pulled back and there i was again getting the shit kicked out of me again

feeling a bit lonely tonight i really miss you tonight i now you need some time and space right now but i really really love you more then any thing i the world just feel the world has stopped spinning today hope all goes as planned and life will be back to normal i really might sound like a girl right but today almost hurts as bad as the day i lost my father

so what's been go on lately well let me tell you. I have decided that I will know worry about who is my friend there are two ways we can do this and that is you're with me or you are against me so be it I was at my child's band day and she was awesome of course I just want to say those of you I consider a friend I feel very bless

two greatest kids ever

Ok so I'm getting the silent treatment from a co-work which I thought I was really close with and have no idea way I've decided I can't really worry about it and going to just move on friends gained friend lost oh well the good news is hockey season has started and I have some major things happening in my life so go me when I share this blog with my kids I want them to know how much I really love them and how much they mean to me so with that said later peeps

everyone has there hand out

Ok I'm here for a few different reasons. The least of witch is to become a better writer and hope to write a book later on. The main reason is that I just need to vent sometimes. Right now people around want money from me for many reason none of which is that I owe them money. I should start out by saying Ionly make about 28,ooo a year. Which of that I lose almost sixty percent though child support which I'm good with, but it never seems enough. I only have some much and everyone has there hands out for more. The only time I feel like I can make only one happy is if I die and everyone can split the money and throw me in the gourd. I will get though this and I will be happy again.