so things are better now still have some feeling the life is falling apart around me with my children and girlfriend and rest of my family so not really sure what to do but i guess i will figure it out

day 2

so last night really sucked ass. i was thinking about life today and what i came up with is that all this year all i could think about is life is really just kicking the holy shit out of me but then there was that one little gimmer of hope but really it was just like charlie brown getting ready to kick that football soon as i went to kick the ball got pulled back and there i was again getting the shit kicked out of me again

feeling a bit lonely tonight i really miss you tonight i now you need some time and space right now but i really really love you more then any thing i the world just feel the world has stopped spinning today hope all goes as planned and life will be back to normal i really might sound like a girl right but today almost hurts as bad as the day i lost my father